The story
Where I started, where I am now, and the messy middle.
Then and now
Shirtless before and after photos. Skip them if body photos aren't good for you today.
Honest check-in
Last 30 days
The long view
See every year
Body
Weight, daily movement and sleep.
Goal line at the target weight
For you
If you came here thinking about your own health.
- Your numbers aren't a grade, and mine aren't a target. Bodies, genes, histories and lives are different. What's hard for you may be easy for me, and the other way round.
- Compare with your own past, not with anyone else. Better than last month is the only comparison that matters.
- Setbacks are part of it. My long view has a big regain in the middle. Starting again still counts.
- Getting help isn't cheating. Doctors, medication and support are tools. I use them.
- Your questions belong with your own doctor. Nothing on this page is medical advice.
If it feels heavy
If food, weight or body image are taking over, the National Alliance for Eating Disorders has a free helpline: 866-662-1235 (Mon–Fri, 9am–7pm ET), or visit allianceforeatingdisorders.com.
If you're in crisis or thinking about hurting yourself, call or text 988 (US) any time, or visit 988lifeline.org.
If you ever want to share yours
I'll be honest — this page felt frightening before it felt freeing. What made it possible was other people showing their real numbers first, good weeks and bad ones alike. You never have to share anything. It's entirely your call.
But if you ever do, in whatever way feels right to you, I'd be glad to help. Send me a message and I'll point you where to start.